I guess I've been avoiding my own blog for some time.

Many things have happened, but I'm not sure whether I want to talk about it.

For now, let me just give you some good news, and some bad news.

Let's start with the bad news.

I lost my camera. Again. Yes, I know. My camera's not even half a year old. I just.. Burst out in tears when I thought of how stupidly careless I was for the second time. I may not have mentioned it before, but I really love my camera. Or actually.. I really love the memories I've taken in with my camera. I spent the whole of RBS capturing unforgetable moments with my camera.. And now it's gone. It's all gone.

My parents said they're not angry at me. Just disappointed that I've not learnt to be more careful with my stuff. It's just weird you know.. I've never lost my wallet, or keys, or handphone, or handbag, or one of those more important stuff. But I lost my camera - Twice!

They said they'll buy me a new camera. And I guess some of you might be saying things like, 'Wah lao, just lost her camera and there she goes.. Buying a brand new one".

I wouldn't be getting a new camera if I weren't leaving for USA this August. And that's the good news. Or maybe bad news. I don't know.

My SAT results were released online last week. I'm not going to reveal them here, I don't feel very comfortable with that. But let's just say that they're good enough to get me scholarships for both the Universities in USA that I applied for. The University of Ozarks offered me a $13,000 scholarship, so even though it's only my second choice, I guess I'll be one of their students studying there starting this August.

I didn't want to leave at first, but I've thought about it. I think it's best for me to go.. To start a whole new life over in the States. And when I come back, I can start all over in Malaysia again too. Some of my friends expressed their feelings of not wanting me to go, but I know that there're some others who'll be smiling when I leave. Oh well, like I said, I don't know.

All I know is this - I'll be gone for four years. What's going to happen over there? What's going to happen when I come back? Will I even come back?

Time will tell.